Happenings

Reflection for the Fifth Sunday of Lent

Reflection for the Fifth Sunday of Lent

I, Lazarus, will always remember that day.

I was lonely.
Four days I had lain in the tomb.
Dark. Damp. Cold and lonely.
The thick walls separated me from any human warmth.
The demonic voices in my head kept telling me
“They” don’t care after all.
“They” are going to go on with the busyness of their own lives
and soon I will just be a faint memory.”

I was angry.
Jesus who had dined with my family and me,
with whom I had laughed and cried:
Asked to come, he waited.
He could have healed me like the others
but he let me down in my greatest need.

I was afraid.
I heard people remove the stone.
I smelled. I was unpresentable. What if I repulsed people?
I preferred they remember my finer days, but now -
no one can go so deep into darkness and be the same.
I was afraid of who I would be.

But then I heard my Lord’s voice -
the heart-breaking cry of one who knows suffering and loss
the prophetic voice of one who knows his identity as God’s chosen
the commanding voice of one who will not leave me un-free
the voice of love. Of unconditional love. Unconditional Love.

I, Lazarus, will always remember that day.

I was lonely. I was afraid. I was angry.
I was loved unconditionally.
And that is the difference of life and death.

~by Sister Kathleen Atkinson, OSB

 

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